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Thomasian. Rockstar. Professional Eater.
Cheapo. Crazy kid. Weird. Extrovert.
These past few days, I always have the urge to blog and put in here all my feelings. My feelings. Honestly, I don’t wanna start an emo-ish intro for this entry yet my “alter emo ego” is always winning. So now, what’s up with me? I MISSSSSS BLOGGING!!! Sobra! Blogging will always be my outlet whenever I feel pinned down in the corner and no one’s in there to help me go up. It is not that I don’t have friends or families, sometimes all I wanted is to be alone, trying to carry all the weight of the world with my two hands. Acting like a superhero or trying to be Ironman when I cannot. Sobrang emo na ba? Nakakainis na diba? Even I is irritated with myself. I hate this damn feeling. In fact, it’s the first time I feel this way so I’m striving to get through this.
I am now with a new company. It’s a website development company based in Ortigas. Not that big company but it has been existing for about 10 years. I am a Project Officer. Man! Before I start working in here, I’ve been through a rocky road situation. There’s always a room for ambivalence. SOME of the people around me threw questions on my face and the hard thing was, some underestimated me. I don’t wanna drop this issue cos I surpassed it already and now I’m starting. It may sound hypocrite if I say I’m not affected with all those words but damn it! Thanks guys for hurting me!!! It gives me so much feels!!!
I just started my work with this company last November 11. Still grasping and adjusting with a new environment because it’s totally different from where I used to be. Super! I didn’t experience a classroom type of training nor a one-on-one training with a trainer, NO. The first day I went in this company, I need to learn and study and ready and familiarize myself with what they are doing. Last week, I felt like stupid for all the mistakes I have done. Yes there were people who are guiding me with how things work and yet, I hardly coped up with the processes because EVERYTHING is new to my eyes and mind.
What are my responsibilities as a Project Officer? Based from my CURRENT experiences and observations; I do meetings with the clients, manages the task for the designers and developers, mediator between the client and developers/designers, schedules projects, tests web applications, etc. Basically, it is still in line with my course. Still working on an IT field. Partly doing systems analysis and some of coding. Am I happy? Yes, though there is still an ambivalence within me. Ugggh, I really can’t understand what’s wrong with me now.
All I am hoping right now is to be able to enjoy my stay with this company. Though not all things work well, I am still challenged and always excited to learn new things!
" ‘Wag kang matakot na baka magkamali, walang magagawa kundi magbabakasali dahil, lumilipas ang oras, baka ka maiwanan kung hindi mo susubukan. " ;)
To the craziest, lunatic, annoying, cranky, subtle, weirdo but beautiful, smart, loving and ever supportive sister @alexiscabingan, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!! I wish you all the happiness in life, stay humble, and always smile :) I love you to the bits and pieces!!! x
Anonymous asked: hi ate where ka po nakakakahua ng tix dati? kasi po nabasa ko po sa CC na you're accepting reservations for uaap before?
Hello! Im getting the tickets from someone I know. Sorry but I can’t disclose to you everything. :)
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